like a bowling ball

fast and uneasy

lane to lane where it bops and weaves

with the strides of your feet and how to keep

it all so complete

nothing to say or teach

going at so many times for the reach

a system that is sure to win

a spin or three

but the gutter can be wider

if you miss your mark

and that room can be a strike

or a miss

eyes in the dark

many circles and stars came aboard

but few reminders can hide the dark that loomed

and from time to time spelled doom

reject negativity and wrong doing

like a jar with no direction

everything was a mess and yet i could somehow

see it all unfold and yet the next phase

told me to slow down the clip

and mentally document the events

oh what i saw?

them tones

in the song i hear counter voices

wishing for a rhythm and basic tempo

lights on and off but the headphones

swtch left ear and then right ear

return the balance and tremble

the science of composing to the

mental intellectual

words,music and texture

what left

yesterday was a time to celebrate

but it had no more meaning

and like last june it was behind me

much like rain that danced in front of me

and went dry once the sun tapped on it's surface

you erase the messenger but remember the message

then the other day a poem comes through the channel

that hits a instant flash in your mind and it says

there was a time when it appeared you and i would

dance and jump the broom over and over again

like two birds that flocked together in the warmth of summer



but our paths went in different directions and like a mirror

we had to find our own area to be seen exclusively

so we never ask what is left because nothing went right

in the end

the tower

building over my mind

the sky is the limit as life is

and the glow that stands

above the power and light

many a step is took

many a moment is reflected

that lead to the creation

vision and atmosphere

are paths of the process

and where shall you stand?

i'm following my heart

days ago i didn't understand the tide and basics

but now i know what it means to be lead in the right direction

seeing and reaching for a common goal is the glue that holds it all together

forever in a minute can open your eyes to so much that one never viewed

previously before and what that means is to allow the natural flow of your heart

to intercept the messages that are loud and clear and that means your soul

is at peace with what is right there in front of you and that is your connection

truth and exact

what happen to the understanding and concearn?

matter of spoken words come to you like a camera

awaiting a face to capture on film

and yet the end of the reel displays a frame of motion

and neither can be seen uncut and unread

where did the figures of the money mean

and where do you turn to to expand

on the hero and the clean

all the texts are on display

and where do you correct errors

that never were intended to be corrected again?

the Oscars are tonight

Febuary Is the month of the super bowl and also the award season in music and film and tonight is the Oscars which is so long it seems that last year's show is still going on. and most folks forget who win but they remember who wore what and who they were with. the oscars once upon a time interested me,but that has been so long ago. they still are selective when it comes to awarding African-American Men and women awards and forget about when it comes to Black directors. i tend to just watch highlights when it comes to the show. unless something truly catches my eye i find the show very boring and so predictable. i doubt i'll be watching,but i might catch some parts mainly for best acting, actress and picture. but i don't know. there are hardly any surprises come oscar time and also they tend to favor films that are considered art films and they tend to downplay the more successful film and like any other corperate driven industry they have there politics and favoreds.

the New York Post is Racist period

calling President Obama the Stimulus Monkey? how loaded is that? that speaks volumes about the Bigots that run that company and what they have in mind and how they truly really feel. now don't get me wrong President Obama attracted a wide range of people from all walks and cultures of people, but there is still a good ole boy network and Jim Crow mindset folks who will always throw shade and let you know what time it still is in America and how they feel. the New York Post is treated like they are some sort of royality when in fact they are no different than a hooded Klansman. i mean it is what it is period. tired of folks not calling out the true bandits and the bullying that goes for news and how the media runs with things. this is tired and we are in the 21rst century this is 2009 not 1909 but when you see images as such and what is printed you have to wonder. i'm neither shocked nor surprised because America still hasn't fully embraced Black People unless we are dancing, shucking,Jiving,bucking, or appear non threatening. same ole formula. we have made Progress but we still have such a long ways to go. and a paper allowing this loaded mess isn't the way to progress.

Black Man

stay alert and never get comfortable

never can settle and never can feel ease

the lenses of a country that hasn't acknowledged

past ways which have paved so many

continue to play the same themes

educate the mind and understand the order

of the surrounding enviroment and meanings

understand your roots and seek new journeys

be the movement and lead the movement

younger brothers are on the come up

hip your eyes to the facts and paint

a picture that tells the whole truth

and nothing but the truth

the check

making sure that all is tight

fresh clothes and the right smell

that dances all the way from head to toe

making sure the loot is on point and in a knot

making sure the wind is breezing directly on me

and not at me

never assume one way or the other

because as sure as sure is that is how to get played

stay cool and smooth right after a shave

all the lines are dotted and all the arrows

give the go ahead and stay on green

maintain your maintain

and all shall remain in tact

whatcha talkin bout

alot of shrimp head turkeys have alot of bark

and many come at you like a full pitcher of kool-aid

but all the elements ain't always there

some folks will try to pinpoint your turning point

but most of them are about as deep as a soap opera

that comes on after midnight

coming at me like you need a loan

and you know you can't even borrow

monopoly money from me let alone real money

the chick looks you up and down and the sign says it all

no Money, No Honey

what you gonna do Homie?

cheaper to keep her, but safer to avoid her

catch twenty twenty but split that in half

and we got a plan

my point of view

i'm long on memory

but short on ignorance

I'm long on uplift

but short on negativity

i'm long on being Happy

but short on saddness

I'm Long on being successful

but short on greedy ways

I'm Long on Love

but short on being used

Long is timeless

and everything else

doesn't matter

wall of beauty

dear wall tell me what you see?

more importantly what did you hear?

we have shared stories and secrets with one another

and yet we have never talked directly but we see and know

one another and like the saying goes if these walls could only talk

but if they did and could how much would they reveal and how would

they look at me beyond what was said?

would i paint over those past sentiments or would i drop curtains

near the window to keep it from commenting as well?

on the bus

speak to me and what did you say?

what is the weather like and what is the feeling in the air?

how much longer do we have until we find a stop light?

what is the traffic saying about the area we live in?

how is the weather and what is your interest?

where are you from and where have you been?

what can we talk about now?

conversations are endless and never are quiet

the ride is full of moments and yet the stop is almost here

never finished

never said all the words that needed to be said

expression was written all over your face

but alot of doubt crept in as the moon turned over

stars and breeze questioned our center of the universe

not a fly in sight on a musty evening that seemed to be

a welcome mat for a situation that was asking for a way out

so the dance continued and the manner from which it came

did as well and nothing ever was solved and yet it lingers

as two minds beg to differ over what was accomplished

and the sentiment of a finale appeared to both partys but

it wasn't

who stole Lance Armstrong's bike?

i mean who can ride down the street with Lance Armstrong's bike and not be spotted? i mean you could maybe take something else if that is your intention,but arguably the most important Bike Rider on the entire planet at least One of them, and he has his trademark bike Jacked. you can't just go down the block and not be spotted and i'm sure on ebay,craigslist and whatever other spot including garage sell everybody is seeing and knowing about that bike. the Bike is his symbol triumph and victory and this doesn't add up or make any kind of sense,but if it is there then it seems somebody will try to make a name for themselves or just can't resist. it will show back up and hopefully the way it was orginally was. still you gotta wonder if it was a inside job?

when i'm down

when the fall becomes windy

and the winter screams of flakes that dance

around me and cause me to move with mellow feets

then the Spring rains as if there is nothing else that can get

in the way

summer is striking with heat like there is no air in sight cool it down

all seasons as Night and day are a reflection of what can happen

in a unrest situation where there is no ballance or reasoning for caring

all the hard work until you are blue in the face won't ease the tension

and maddness and yet what will be the next journey on a down road turn?

sweet melody

beautiful as chords that came about

the charm and romance of the signature sound

the beauty of strings and full brass that smile

as the solo and magic appear note after note

arrangements that are the icing on the cake

the groove of love that rings loudly from your ears

directly to your heart and the moment takes away

all the heartache and pain

it takes me to a newer place that never hits any bad notes

all the purity and sentiments are the arrow of cupid

and you can feel the power and enlighten textures of it's sound

and waves as you grasp for more, but it is a melody that lingers

and is so inviting

we dance in diffeent circles

we make eyes and stroll into the sunset

however you dip to your own side of your heart

as i do mine and we never fully connect as we once had

the mind and the matter are two different avenues

and nothing is consistant whatsoever

we are like two lanes headed to the same traffic light

but which one of us is gonna stay on red and which one of us

made it past?

so many asked questions that are left blanked

so many webs that are grown from the corners

and how much can we all be left to think and

be allowed on our own merits of expression?

Shaq and Kobe co mvps of all star weekend

it was only fitting that two of the NBA's Greatest Players Ever and former teammates who made history when they 3 peated together in the early 00's(hard to believe I'm saying the early 00's already where does the time go?) before they went there seperate ways. they shared the top honor as Co MVP's last night in Phoenix at the all star game where Shaq plays. it was a welcoming sight and also a reminder that if perhaps they had have stayed together they would have added more rings and trophys together but they did make history as it was and is. regardless if it was some PR tweaking here and there it is still good to see the Two Brothers getting along and maturing and moving on with there lives and careers respectively. the all star game itself was blah. i enjoyed the anthems,but all star games to me are so corperate and so predictable that it isn't even funny or that entertaining. i dug back in the day when the game came on earlier and you were done with it. now the NBA All Star game is treated like the super bowl or something and it isn't that deep to me. allen Iverson got that fresh hair cut which grabbed alot of headlines. Shaq stole the show before and after the game and he is one of the last true characters the NBA has left to me.

prayers to the victims of the plane crash near buffalo

i wanted to send out prayers to the familys who lost loved ones and friends during that recent crash in buffalo,NY. that truly was sad to hear and so tragic. nobody never knows how the planes, jets are going to go and it is always a chance with the equipment and how the planes will land and the weather and so much more. it was on the news and it truly struck home with me. tragedys as such always seems to put things into full perspective and context about how fragile life truly is and how it can be. i watched the footage and heard and saw some of the familys who appeared on Larry King live last week. i wanted to send out prayers to all involved.

who spoke to you?

words came to you and yet you were silenced

not just by anger or frustration but also by

the war within your soul and mind

that ate at the core of your vaules and system

what door was ahead there standing in your way?

went another night and went another day and you still

didn't have things going your way and you didn't echo

the past and you didn't speak to the present and you ignored

yesterday and what else does that leave you with exactly?

Bill Russell has the NBA Finals MVP nameed after him

this is NBA All Star weekend and the games biggest All Star of them all the biggest Winner ever in the game the Great Bill Russell is honored and the NBA said that the Finals MVP Award will now be known from here on out as the Bill Russell Award which to me is long overdue. Mr. Russell recently lost his Wife to Cancer prayers out to him and family,friends and a few years back his coach in Boston Red Auerebach passed. two of the most Important People in his life passed and it was noticeable when Mr. Rusell was acknowledging the Award being named after him. but he has always been classy and a Giant in so many ways. all the classic battles with the Great Wilt Chamberlin. All Star Weekend is always interesting and then there is the game itself later this evening. but this is a great honor for the One and Only Bill Rusell. a Champion on and off the court.

Swimming in Stream

across the view and eyes are alert

paint the boat and let us all stand afloat

when has the sky appeared to be looking me

directly within the eyes

i glanced and turn toward upwards

don't let the mental shark take you down

be on the right path

Heart took a hit

when love left what was else to do?

what happen to a soul when the choice

became mainly on one side of the fence?

broken hearts and tears stream in full flow

which way will all go and how will it all play itself

out?

love and like become loath and never again

and the next time how will the story affect

you from within?

Valentines day is overrated when you are alone

funny how when cupid is showing you all those fuzzy feelings and sentiments the world is at your feet, but when it's not going your way then you are looking blank and can't find anything to get excited about. so what becomes of a heart that got tore up? what makes you think and feel that you are the only one dealing with pain when it comes to the personal side on this particular time of the year. but it seems to be something that truly stays within the mind set and never lets up. all the money and chocolate candy and flowers when you are watching from the other side of it alone, makes this time of the year seem so long and tired. it feels like one of the longest days of the whole year and it never ends.but times won't always be as such.

see the picture and be the picture

what is says inside the frame

makes me review and look at things

up close and personal

moments and seconds upon the reflection

can say so much and yet i never remember the time

standing still and being clear about the presentation

but what happens when the picture didn't turn out

how you wanted it to?

the edge of the frame seems different

and yet we treausre the picture even if the image

didn't turn out how we wanted it to be

unique day

normal is what exactly again?

what made sense five minutes ago

is now passe and often forgotten

how you feel about yesterday doesn't speak

to what the following week on that same day

will mean to you and yet a fresh perspective

is often to beg within your mind,spirit and soul

a new chapter and new wording is the order

of the day and yet what is the way to getting there?

the sky above me is free of the debris that can land

footside and my mind shall follow as well that lead

from time

minutes tick away and i see you

i run toward what makes me stare

and i sense that a force of nature is watching

my movements and directing my own ticking

of the mental clock and i listen for the seconds

where will they all end up and where do they

often depend on me for operation and finish?

seeking out the proper order

will only take me as far as I need to go and be

yet i never thought about it before,but now

i have to re-enforce a new agenda to make

it all count and be a wiser soul than from ever before

octuplet Mother:Oh Lawd!!!

i couldn't believe that this woman was gonna have more babys. i mean she has 14 kids and is acting like she wants more and I'm like you gotta be tripping on the sho nuff. I mean who has more than 5 kids in 2009 again? now she is a very attractive Woman,but she is really trying to cash in on it and I can't recall anything like this before. I mean being blessed with a child is a wonderful experience,but you gotta be real about situations and this seems like a cash in and where will it go nobody knows? I still am speechless at all the attention and what have you going on with her now. but God Bless her and her family because she has her work cut out for her. i see a reality tv show amongest other things coming into view.

New to me

time to press forward and move ahead

what is hip and what is your direction

will lead you back to yourself

i learned a lesson and by chance it was needed

and wanted,but the magic came and went over my head

i had a agenda and had to make a choice

thinking i had it all under wraps and had it all sealed

like a envelope but my forces were changed forever

and now I have a new dedication

where it all comes from

when the door bell sounds what did it say to you?

was excitment on the other side of that door be it good,bad?

how you react and how you see and feel about the acknowledgement

and akwardness of it all?

the sounds of delight may await but your troubled times

may not see the full picture of humor in it all

and yet nothing is as serious as it appears to be and

yet at the same time there is always a expression

that greets you and you can never fully erase that

frame of time and moment out of your direct visual

and you think of what to say and wonder about this day

until............................................................

searchin

time to drive and be free

seek out the moments and find the inner beauty

sweet smells and sure essence is the measures to treasures

always waiting for that call back and getting the stars

in my eyes to re-establish my footing and placing

in the night i had a flashlight and no bulb

had a stop sign but no way to stop

what then next? i never knew or know then or now

another rule

another source and where do i finally settle in my state of mind?

where can i link the whole truth and nothing but the truth

when the eyes that i so once believed in and trusted became

unequal pupils and drifted right in front of me and went out of the window

on the spot like that?

fast forward and i want to be alone on my own planet and yet

it is not the way i sought it all out and then again the same theme

plays it's hand like a bad card game in my mind over and over again

didn't learn this game before it took it's own turn and there is no

guide to set it all together

the Grammys

well it is another year and it is grammy time and who wins what and who wore what is gonna be the topics of discussion and not necessary in that order. so tonight the big names are either performing or being up against one another. Lil Wayne had a huge year, Coldplay, and other acts are battling against one another. the Music industry is a strange business because it always looks like something new is gonna forever end it and then all of a sudden something else happens and then boom it is back. but the grammys haven't moved me in many a year and to me the hype is more stronger than the actual bite. alot of the same ole same and not any fresh energy that i see emerging. but the grammys still hold some sway for some folks. i will be watching but not expecting much.

eating together

shared a meal and felt the universe was at peace

the delight and the heart of the meal was the sentiment

preparing and dedication went into layering and creating

something from the ehart that said enjoy and you are welcomed

bringing together in conversation and a toast to the blessings

and expressions that are felt during a time that every minute

is viewed as a treasure and what brings those forces together

is a deep and profound natural respect

Michael phelps with the reefer and Alex rodriguez roids

what a interesting week in sports and the use of drugs which to me is a choice and i feel some things are way overblown. Michael phelps the Olympic God Medalist who won a record 8 gold medals at last year's olympics in the various swimming contests got busted smoking reefer in a picture posted recently. it cost him a three month suspension and also soem endoresements.but i ask do people that what did he do that quite a few other people don't do? i mean he didn't do it openly. now he has to know that there are haters out to get him and are envious of his status. but still this got way overblown to me. that man is a champion and he will be dominating again.

Alex Rodriquez is a linked to a steriod test from 2003 and i say so what? A rod is a natural in terms of sheer talent. this whole steriods test i truly believe in 10-20 years time will be seen as a whatever because there are always new drugs and things that are even more advance and also who is to say that athletes from the past weren't doing it back in the 60's through 80's?? i mean nothing new is under the sun it's just done with a different methoid. A-Rod is a very important player for his time and era and this has to be dmaaging for him, but i do feel he will be alright. i feel that folks in Major League Baseball knew and know all about steriods and don't really care just as long as the game is sold a certain way. besides you can't proof what it can do for one player as to another. i mean there are alot of players who have taken then and they have been bums. it doesn't make you into a superman because you already had to have some sort of game from jump street.

every five minutes

when the clock is motioning

what runs through my mind and soul

like a car and a bus on a one way drive

where is the dead end coming up on?

many a task is done when in movement

and what has just passed us by?

mini dreams and story lines enter

and i question every intention

and the way the action is going down

yet still i become nervious with having to

explain details and directions

and like where do i seek out a road map

when the signs of life are blurry??

before and after

where has memorys over the ocean gone?

deep into the water of a bottle is a note that reflects

the content of my heart and you can see the image

looking back into the sands of the Ground

where did the tears of last night go and where

did the smiles of tommorow vanish to?

somewhere in between is the future which is a week away

and yet the trials of moments play like a vamp over and over

in a Groove and where has that structure ended up when the game

is about loving within the Soul

minutes took there time

as the clock was moving and my heartbeat jumped

i gather up so much energy and i still long for the ticks

what was going to happen next?

i need a answer and i need to get results

but memory is fast moving on to other things

can i ever get it all back and not fall back?

time is not waiting on nobody and nobody

is bothered by how you long for the past

and trying to run from the present

but eventually when something is long on your heart

it keeps the clock at rest and makes you reflect and react

running in sunshine

where you live and where you stay?

did your day become a night before your eyes

or where you just standing behind the curtain and couldn't

see a light when a switch was never in place?

what controled your mind when you couldn't be alone?

walking toward the moon and always in search of something to reflect upon

and while my heart melted that ray of warmth took me to a place that only a

few times had i explored and it was purity as pure could be

great super bowl

pittsburgh beat arizona and won the super bowl for there 6th championship in team history which broke a tie from san francisco and dallas for most Pro NFL titles ever. Ben Roethlisberger lead the steelers back. He is a tough Quarterback. the Cardinals Kurt warner was something else as well. Santana Holmes was voted the MVP of the Super Bowl for the Steelers. Steelers Head Coach Mike Tomlin became the youngest coach to win the championship and also the 3rd African-American Head coach to make it to the big show and he is now a standard of Modern day Head coaches. it was a wild and crazy game. what a ending. i enjoyed myself a great deal. it was great food and fun. my daughter and friends all had a wonderful time. the commericals were ok for the most part. the halftime show with Bruce springsteen was aight. great seeing President Obama talking before the game as well. he was rooting for the Steelers as well. a fun time had.

Black History Month

Febuary is Black History Month and this Year is special because of the First Black President Barack Obama. what a wonderful time to reflect on a this Rich Nation and also the History of Black People who have made America that much stronger in so many fields of life and in everyday life. 400 plus Years. foremothers and forefathers who paved the way and made it possible for myself and a whole future Generations to eat,drink and buy and do whatever in this country because of changes. a history that touches on so many great contributions and so much more that needs to be taught at school on all grade levels. so many African-American firsts and so much that needs to be discussed and told to all people.the Media has often distorted the image of African-Americans and public perception in general. this is a New day and chapter in Black History Month. explore and learn and educate yourself because I still learn something new every day about my culture.