take a look

at any other time a glance is like a chance

and where two hearts and souls seek to be

a stream of a river that flow as one

upon further insight directions and understanding

moments occur that recall a sudden moment

where eyes melted and found a warm secure

placing that melted away the frost and cold

many layers that hid heartache

but those same layers painted a heart

that had arrived at wanting to be

seen and treated very delicate

a flower awaits full growth

when seen in it's proper context

Happy New Year 2009

welcome to 2009! it feels wonderful being blessed at seeing another year. 08 had highs,lows and other factors and each passing year means different things. president Obama made history as the first Black President and that made my year. i always feel that the best is still yet to come. i never feel the best is in the past. as the new year starts what are your plans and what do you want achieve? goals and dare i say dreams always come into view. will the next 365 days be any different than the past year? each day brings about a new chapter and direction and context. what is the motive and what is the force that says this year will be the one? so where do you want to be from where you were already?

the dreams

started running down the beach

and rewinded my brain about the went and how it turned where

nothing made sense when i started studying the past and i needed

a mental map to fine tune my today

so i fast forward to my globe and sprang forth as i was motivated

to have a clear path to my destiny and my mental Emancipation

rivers of flow came through me like rain above head level

and never a minute did a feel a missed minute of rest

the NFL Season offically ended yesterday

hard to believe football season ended. hard to believe the New England Patriots who went through last season undefeated, didn't even make the playoffs this season. the detriot lions who have stunk for many years post Barry Sanders era, took the lowly debts to new heights this year by going 0-16 the first time ever a team lost every game. the miami dolphins who only won a single game, ended up winning the AFC East title. my Buffalo Bills came up short again. the Dallas Cowboys choked and blew a golden chance. the World Champion New York Giants are the top seed in the NFC. last year they were 5th seed in route to pulling off a upset over the then un-beaten New England Patriots. there's is nothing quite like NFL Post-Season football. looking forward to the Post Season which starts this weekend. the NFL always has you wondering what is gonna happen next.

Protect the Energy

i was the light that paved a walk way in the dark

i was the fore-runner through the leaves in the park

never did i leave a soul behind as the sands of the tide

arrived footside even on a still day or evening and yet

a whisper from the past questions the elements

of a frosty bitter spring night where the birds

refused to chirp and the nest was touched

as if the lightening sparks weren't enough

to remind one's being to be in place

and respect the order of nature

and where does that leave eyes in the shadows

without any distance from being out of view?

Candy Canes are healthy for you

so the latest study says that candy canes are good for you against germs and stomach problems etc.... funny how only during the holiday season is when i care about eating candy canes. most other times of the year i can take or leave them and not think about them one way or the other. but they are feel good and soothing in there own way. there is always a catch where candy is concearned. you have the sugar factor,but then you also have other factors where they can help you in terms of calcium and other factors that are used to make you feel better. it's always cool to hear about things that are normally said to be bad for you, having a plus side and that can benefit you in a bigger picture,especially where germs and other colds or factors come into view.

what do i believe?

what makes our conditions as they are?

what makes this journey so complicated and yet so enriching?

what makes me think about the rocks in the water and how they

got there and how they sounded when compared to a heartbeat that was

Broken

whenever i see the ground of winter i think of soothing sounds

and yet i can't walk through it because the ice melts so many memorys of time

like a drummer who is finding a groove, a soul is finding it's place in the universe again

Happy Kwanzaa

it is very important that a time of the year speaks to cultural pride and uplift. i needed to acknowledge a time of the year that makes me reflect from here to the Motherland. it is a 7 day acknowledgement and principals that are very essential for not only today but also all year long. i celebrated a few years back and reflected from within on my goals and principals. togetherness,unity, uplift and understanding yourself and family. it is so important to touch on subjects that affect us all and especially from within a culture. i look toward following all the teachings in celebrating kwanzaa. wishing the best to all who celebrate it.

Merry Christmas

thank you for the troops and our soliders who serve and protect us.

thank you parents,relatives,friends and neighbors who look out and make us respect our surroundings and lead us into our own.

thank you for gifts that move me now and gifts that are not seen that carry me through ups and downs

thank you for remembering what this time represents and means

thank you for singing praises and uplift that overcomes so many obstacles

thank you for the birth of many incredible Human Beings who make the world

go round and makes a special day as this one shine


Peace and Blessings to the whole world

the Night before Christmas

the night and the wind blew

my heart felt the soul of the city

and as i awake and saw the moon
we were all awaiting gifts and giving

back thanks and we wanted and wanted

but a loss that touched us came with no answers

and if we thought back what was magical about it

many a night the 24th was what brought moments

and yet the 25th was the presents and yet nobody took

a gift as the emotion and sentiments as the night before

still memorys stay sealed while the day to day wants

never are covered

talking to relatives after a long,long time

nothing quite like hearing from relatives that i haven't talked to in many years. it feels like a breath of fresh air and it truly touches the soul. re-connecting with family members who can educate and share memorys and storys that truly take you back to a time period that was the start of a journey and what lead you to who you have become. sometimes you just need to be re-awaken to seeing and feeling what you have missed out on and it's never too late to have conversations and to also communicate. the holidays are very important but beyond that it is very important every day to share in the joys of words and sentiments that go such a long,long way and it is very much needed.

when i sing

when the angels and the spirits touch down on me

wherever the sky is shinning and the beauty of light

is reaching in touch to me then i want to hear the sounds

i want to embrace the moments and cherish where the

rhythms of past voices and souls were going directly

toward me in uplift

and if the Lord hears my prayers and voice then

i'm above tears and fears when i need laughter

and i need joy that speaks to the core of my being

and the power of song and tone covers me

and warms my whole human side

Christmas Music

it is that time of the year and the music is played non stop. it brings me in as i reflect to the past and enjoy the harmony and the music. it is that time of the year that no matter where you go to and what store,etc.. you are at you will hear the familiar music and just have to feel the sentiments and Grooves. now for me when I hear Donny Hathaway's "this Christmas", Jackson five Christmas Music, Elvis Presley, Johnny Mathis Christmas Music,and of course Nat king Cole's Christmas Album then it is that time to get the egg nogg out and enjoy the time of the year. it is truly a welcoming feeling and it warms my soul from start to finish. i groove to James Brown's Christmas Album as well. i'm a fan of it and the whole fuzzie feeling and cherry aspects of it and as a matter of fact i can listen to it a few additional months afterwards as well.

in my humor

make me laugh you say

make me smile at all costs

make me break out in a roar

as if life was full of non stop

jokes and so it is in it's own way

but still another day of watching

the four wall and staring into space

and I need a reminder of that joy

when all you do is paint a picture of

happier times and even in down times

laughs are the best medicine and are

free and that is the one present

that doesn't need to be hidden

when you can just laugh

first day of Winter how can i tell?

well it is snowing or cold nearly everywhere in the United States as I write this and I wonder did i need to be reminded that today marks the offical first day of Winter? I mean it's been cold non stop for a week and change and the snow, road conditions and the general look and feel of the sky hasn't lead me to think otherwise. it's been a vibe that makes me count down the days until Spring gets here. talk about looking at the calendar like every hour on the hour? but for people who want a chrstimas where the scene here is magical and you want to expereince Winter Wonderland then this is your scene and feel. bundle up and stay warm and unless you have to be out in it, then avoid doing anything on the outside at all costs. it seems like weeks since i have seen the sidewalks and roads but it's actually been two weeks. but all of the snow yikes!!!!!!!!!

packed supermarkets on a saturday

it was a trip going to the supermarket today trying to get grocerys and just finding a spot in line and putting items on the counter. so much activity going on and not a moment to lose track of your place,etc... now I wanted to shop and be ready to get in and get out, but the store was wall to wall packed and it seemed like it would take a good hour to get a move on. it seemed no matter where i went shopping at the shops were jam packed on both sides of the city. i wanted to just make a dash but with traffic driving slow because of the snow and un-seen ice. but anyway it made for a memorable day and time. the most important thing is to get home safe and sound. the weather is 15-20 degrees and trying to stay warm.breezy and windy and hauling to get in a warm spot is the most important thing needed to do on this day and for that matter this week.

icy weather

can't avoid these cold conditions.i mean snow,ice and cold air and strong winds. that can be all in a hour or so. trying to stay warm and bundle up. hard to walk on the sidewalk and slip.seeing bushes hanging over rails.coast to coast it's like this non stop. hard to digest this time of the yea for me. i ain't never been a fan of this time of year.i can't wait until the spring and especially summer. drivers are pacing as are other people dealing with these circumstances. everybody is taking a wait and see approach.i actually day dream of warmer times. spring isn't that far away. isn't it?

where minutes take me

as the clock ticks

around the center of my mind

whom do find within sight as i question

a dream i had

next week,like next month,next hour

and whatever next enters my path

as i hear sounds and what seems like forever

in seconds i awake and see exactly

what time it truly is

making it work

be a minute or a second

what happen to the moments

of yesterday that left us wondering?

make me make a wish and lead me to a dream

and avoid all future drama

and then the wheels won't ever spin out of control

so i stand on a moutain and what do i see as i look down?

how will my soul take me where it needs to be?

that is the power of thought and hope

John Walsh of America's most wanted solved a lifelong mystery

John Walsh of america's most wanted after 27 years finally found out the killer who killed his son.the guy who killed his son died in prison. he died about a decade or so ago.his son's name is adam walsh. the sad reality of John Walsh losing his son lead to him starting up the long running show "America's Most Wanted" which has captured and also brought conclusions to various cases through the years. it was great to hear this for Walsh and his family. never any real conclusion with the loss of life but a closure for justice for Walsh and family.

David Paterson New Yoork governor mocked on SNL

New York Governor David Paterson didn't find anything funny or amusing about Saturday Night Live mocking him being Blind and how he talks,etc... i find this offensive and down right wrong on so many levels. i know SNL is about Satire and picking on public figures but there has to be some middle ground in there somewhere. where is the line you don't cross? i often wonder what is green lighted on these shows? why do folks find any humor at the expense of someone who can't see? I mean there is a line you just don't cross. i would like to see more compassion for situations such as these.

celebrating a Birthday

time to say happy birthday and feeling good as always. another year like another month,day,hour second,etc... has come and gone and the memorys of it are as much of a blessing as the days of the past. the power of God that blesses me and gives me another moment to cherish and spend with family and friends is a wonderful thing. still as the years go by, i don't think about numbers, because Life is about so much more. it is time to be thankful and to have hope and talk about so many things. birthdays bring those moments and new ones out of you and then some. so many gifts and things but more importantly well wishes that make you feel appreciated and vauled as a human being that is a beautiful thing for the soul.

president Bush had shoes thrown at him

talk about the shoes come flying. president Bush was giving a speech and then two shoes came directly at him. now despite the mis-guided direction that the president has lead the nation into, he is still the president and he should be respected no matter where you come down on his politics and takes on matters. of all the things i see on a news break seeing a pair of shoes tossed at the head of a president isn't what comes to mind. i could see not agreeing with him, but nothing quite like that. nowadays folks seem to say and do anything and yet we still can be surprised by certain actions. so what is next do i dare turn the tv on??

through the eyes of Winter

crisp and dreamy as if the city was still

looking across the river and the pond

and the water is at a peaceful rest

searching around and pouring out

like hot tea from a steaming pot

sentiments and reason dare not drop

as the seconds and miutes of the clock

continue as if nothing else mattered

and there was never a reason to ever stop

a fuzzy buzz and clear skys and the moon and stars

stare back as whispers of strangers walk by unison

and many miracles and themes play themselves out

over the scent that is the in the air for this particular season

Oprah winfrey and she is worried about her weight

despite having the whole world by a string and being successful many times over, Oprah Winfrey says that her weight gain over the past few years has her worried. now I personally i love me some Oprah with meat on her bones. skinny Oprah doesn't look natural to me and my eyes. that goes for most ladies because I likes a woman who ain't afraid of a good home cooked Meal, YES LAWD!!!!!! Oprah looks her best to me when she is fed and smiling. but i also understand a comfort level of when there are things that can throw your balance off and diet is very important to us all in some form or fashion, still a Healthy size Oprah always makes my eyes get glassy and real shinny as if Diamonds tapped dance by me. but i understand.

the joy of sound

hear bells and whistles

the horns are sounding off

and the memorys are ringing

and the roar of the chanting

gets me every time to sing out loud

like a ocean that has a bottled message

stored and the words just say can you hear me?

listen to crickets and hear the purity and

feel the grooves in a circle and unite us all

Paula Abdul being forced off American Idol?

sounds like American Idol wants to get ride of Paula Abdul. the latest episode has a stalker who is obessed over Abdul being allowed to participate on the show. it has made Abdul uncomfortable to say the least. but Paula has been dogged for years at some of her comments and what have you on the show. so Abdul at this point is considered the weak link. now musically she was only as good as the video image she had to me and her dancing was cool. Idol has been on the down-swing for some time now. this show has always had drama and so why change now?

the Illinois mess

what is going on with Illinois politics? i mean the Governor trying to sell off President elect Barack Obama's chair. now Jesse Jackson Jr's name is thrown into the mix.so many things going down with wire taps, money,etc... this a mess and what will happen next? another Governor taking a fall in Illinois. it seems to be a common theme. the media is all over this and trying to make a statement directed toward Barack Obama. what shall become of this and what will it mean down the road? doing whatever it takes to get a seat and trying to act like nothing could come of this,etc.... the media will talk and there is gonna more to come sad to say.

Obama can't stop smoking

President elect Barack Obama said he can't stop smoking which is something that many people from around the world have said as well. i mean the addiction to smoking is very strong. the patch or just chewing on something to slow it down is recommended and whatnot, but it truly takes a strong will mentally and physically. it takes time. smoking is a relaxing statement and also it has been seen as a "IN" thing to do,etc... this was a big deal sunday when Tom Brokaw asked President Barack Obama straight up had he quit smoking? we all have things that we can't let go off for various reasons. it is a level of comfort and to avoid stress and lord knows being the president of the usa is gonna cause some serious stress.

in memory of grandma Helen

happy birthday and my heart,mind and soul

feels you and your words in my current frame of mind


you are in heaven and you are an Angel shinning

your light flows my way when clouds and darkness

are in the forecast and those days and nights

become one

what message do you have for me when i look in the mirror

and i can't find an answer

your ways of communication toward me spoke volumes

and now i sit in silence

You Left in December

words that said another day had arrived

and no longer was a space within the heart

as the air winter had arrived the scene from within

had been closed and the eyes had closed upon sight to sight

as gifts and decorations were to arrive, the envelope

and boxes were left off to the side for a eye to see the

bare reality and where things were headed

as if any other time could have been digested any better

a particular time to say goodbye had been met

on a highway that forever pointed into two

different dirfections as if the sun and snow

could no longer mix hands and time together

despite layoffs people are feeling holiday spirit

as i go past my place and also going around town i noticed alot of people into the holiday spirit. no layoffs and jobs are being taken away left and right and this is truly a sad time where the economy is concearned and whatnot, but it is still refreshing and good to see so many people in the holiday mood and bringing forth good wishes and cheers. money is tight and places are folding and jobs are going by the waistside. the depression of many a moon gone by is being felt throughout the nation and president elect Barack Obama has said that matters will be worse before they are better. it truly is a sad,sad day and time and despite all of that hen you see folks in the holiday spirit and mood it has to touch and lift your spirits up a bit.

Britney Spears interesting week

Pop Music Icon and making news daily it seems. the Britney boat just keeps on sailing as her new album "Circus" drops in the record stores, her birthday and a reflection on her career thus far, and her plans and what she has done. a big time interview on MTV that speaks on said topics and her parents,etc.... she has been around a decade, hard to believe and she still has a strong pressence on the Pop culture world at large. to me she is the Madonna of her time because she generates the same type of buzz and hype. she is able to turn a negative into a Positive. she is what you want from a Pop SuperStar in the modern day world. her albums have done quite well over the years and she is very successful with her tours and other projects. her life is a interesting journey thus far and i believe there is more to come. She helped push Justin Timberlake's solo career. do you remember "call me a river" and the video? Britney makes you look and pay attention and in this day and age of music being a by product within the context of Music that in itself speaks volumes.

OJ Simpson glory and doom

yesterday football great OJ Simpson was sentenced to Prison and he is likely to be out in 10 with a possible maximum of even longer. i feel this case was payback for his not guilty verdict back in 1995. now OJ didn't make the best choices and he lead himself to his own downfall,etc... but this case and the fact that folks were out to get him and he fell for it all show why it is a sad time. OJ Simpson is One of the most important sports Icons Ever period and from the perspective of him being a African-American Athlete who crossed over as a corperate pitchman. from his days as a Hesiman trophy winner at USC as a Star Running back to his days with the Buffalo Bills(My favorite football team) and him being the first running back to crack 2,000 yards in a season then he retired as a San Francisco 49ers running back. OJ is a Father and he had his Wives and whatnot along with being a son and what have you. something tells me the saga of OJ Simpson will never end. and why should it? he is a Icon and he had alot of things happen in his life which we can only speculate and whatnot and hoepfully he will be alright.

every moment

what comes next and what will be?

can i see your window and what came through it?

did the stars in the sky turn into rain and leave

you all frustrated?

when did it become cool to ignore who you were

yesterday and pretend that today is gonna

be just any given moment?

tommorow i dreamed of having

a letter and reading it loud

and yet there is another chapter

that hasn't been opened up for review

dare you skip and look beyond

and not view a picture from

winthin

Grammy Nominations/Victoria secret's special

last night i watched both shows on cbs and i wanted to see the hype of both. Grammy Nominations show showed Lil Wayne getting 8 nominations, with Cold Play getting 7 nominations and Kayne West getting quite a few as well. i don't really feel much from watching the grammys and haven't in years.

the Victoria Secrets Show has alot of beautiful ladies but most of them seem to be missing a good meal. it is the usual Hollywood scene with a whose who of folks in the audience,but it feels very staged.

these two shows worked with the context of the network and the entertainment factor. it's all about selling Product and marketing which leads into so much commericalism, and advertisment.

but i still had to check out what was happening.

gifts for the Holidays

what do you get this person or that person? i mean there are so many things to look into,but what is the best gift and how does it reflect the person you have in mind? over the years i tend to find certain gifts for certain people that capture the moment. window shopping and then on-line.there are of course gift certificates and other ways of giving gifts for family, friends and what have you. bought gifts that were happening for the time period, bought gifts that were trendy, bought gifts that i can't even remember where i got them again. i have gotten many wonderful gifts over the years and it's been quite memorable. all gifts have there place and will always mean so much to the soul.

Christmas Decorations are up

going down the street in my neighborhood and seeing all of the wonderful decorations and it feels great to see so much color and flow this great time of the year. it seems everybody is getting in on board and this makes the Holiday season that much more fantastic. every year i look in various neighborhoods to see how folks fix up there homes and areas. it seems that once thanksgiving ended that people got into Christmas and are in the mood. i like to go sight seeing and taking in the night life of it all. i truly like this time of the year. lights are so out of sight and on point. i like seeing the creativity involved and directions. so many memorys of the past and present when it comes to putting up trees and how they look,etc...

beyond yesterday

how you look at the circle

and what turn do you make it go

how far is the wall and where did you lean

and turn into it?

what makes you feel so brave and naive

all at once and yet left with a blank stare

could i be scared of the unknown or maybe

i just never fully knew?

can today really be as doubtful as they say

or was tommorow already written to be

a moment which leaves me unmoved

and more puzzled than before

you know the heart

can't remember the day and time

but you made a soul come alive

and the sky has been felt every since that day

like ballons floating in the air, that is the sentiment

of our two hearts becoming as one

from june to december

the laughter,feelings and acknowledgement

is all i can remember

and like a dance i'm glad i took that chance

world Aids Day

today is the acknowledgement of world Aids day which affects and impacts lives world-wide. so many people are dealing with the diease in so many ways and there is still no cure and while there is Progress it is still away. around the world ribbons and many hearts are fighting for a cure to slow down and eventually stop this deadly diease. this diease is felt so much and it has crossed so many backgrounds and people of all ages,etc.... hopefully there will be a cure one day. it will be a great for the whole world and it is important to remember and talk about the impact of the diease.